My Poison
Posted on Tuesday, March 24th, 2009 at 2:19 PM
Mistakes
A poison runs through my veins
After all the dirt and anguish
Of the days aftermath is washed away
After I step into that warm steady stream
And scrub away the filth … still an infection
Runs through my blood
No matter the vaccine or energy wasted
On trying it stays although it does not kill
Me … I wish it would.
To not have to deal with
The stigma or discomfort of this toxin
To fear another’s love or touch of my skin
In fear I might spread this venom I keep searching
For the antidote to help what wears on my spirit
Tampering with my soul.
Looking at the past when I was
So free and healthy now I’m shackled by this poison that
Follows me through my years … trapped in this whole new world
Turned upside down.
To think you’re invisible until it finds you.
To not have a care in the world and think your untouchable
And then your touched … you cannot change what you’ve done
And it cannot be undone but now all to do is to just move forward and
Lessen the pain that this brings and learn to live with it.
Written by dealwitat18
Thank you for sharing this — this is so much my life right now – I just don’t know how to move past it and move on…
Your words say what I have thought many, many times and feel every day. I am so thankful to hear someone feels the same way.
Have you thought about praying and asking God to help lead you through this mess? I’m so glad that this poem that was submitting is pushing you guys to vent even if it’s just a few lines.